`out for a smoke |open|

[shelby alexandria merrick]

*i don't mean to run !
^{BUT EVERYTIME YOU COME AROUND I FEEL MORE ALIVE THAN EVER}

Tossing. Turning. Tossing. Turning. Tossing. Turning. "Damn it," Shelby said finally turning over on her back and staring up at the ceiling. She couldn't go back to sleep. It was just too hard. She didn't even have to be up for another couple hours. What the hell was wrong with her? She closed her eyes and put her hands over them. Bad dreams sucked. No not bad dreams, nightmares. Why couldn't she just turn over and go back to sleep like a normal person? She already knew the answer to that question. She couldn't just go back to sleep like a normal person because she wasn't normal. Normal people had nightmares about monsters, or falling, or other things that just weren't happening and weren't real. She had nightmares about...about real things. For the past couple of days every time that she closed her eyes to go to sleep she saw his face. She saw her stepfather's face. Or she saw the faces of some of her nameless clients. No she was not going to think about that right now. Not at....what the hell time was it anyway? She turned over and looked at the clock. It was 6:20. Fine. Fine. Fine.

It was obvious she wasn't getting back to sleep anytime soon. She sat up and ran her fingers through her hair. She let out a yawn and then threw her comforter off of her legs and to the side. She grabbed her toothbrush and toothpaste from her table drawer and made her way down the row of beds straight into the hallway and into the bathroom. She refused to look into the mirror. She was just going to brush her teeth, grab her cigarettes, go smoke, and then come back and try and get some sleep.

Once she was finished brushing her teeth, she walked back to her bad and put her toothbrush and toothpaste back. Going into her secret compartment in her drawer, she grabbed a few cigarettes and her lighter and slipped on her slippers. She looked at her clock and saw that it was almost quarter to 7. She slipped out of the cabin and made her way to the equipment shed. She leaned against the back of it that was closest to the woods and lit the cigarette. After taking her first drag she studied her right forearm that held her Marilyn Monroe tattoo. She took another long drag and closed her eyes. That's when she heard a twig snap. "Shit," she whispered and flicked the cigarette away from her. She made sure it was out and then slipped into the equipment shed. She peeked out of the window to see which of the counselors had interrupted her much needed smoke time.

To her surprise it wasn't either. She opened the equipment shed door and leaned against the frame with a smirk on her face. She placed one of the other cigarettes between her lips and lit it. After taking a drag, slipping the other cigarettes in her pockets, and running her fingers through her wavy hair, she said, "You know I just threw out a perfectly good lit cigarette thinking you were Sophie or Peter?" She smirked.

* maybe we're too young, and i don't even know what's real ! ,
^{BUT I KNOW I'VE NEVER WANTED ANYTHING SO BAD, I'VE NEVER WANTED ANYONE SO BAD}

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[heaven danielle st. hilare]

Heaven couldn't sleep. She hadn't been able to act right even since she arrived at Horizon. Life always seemed to be on a downward spiral for her and it wasn't getting any better. She had been out early in the morning for a run. It was the only way she could clear her head of the day before, and the crap she had gone through. It was hard not talking to many, including counselors. The admit she had a long while ago, eleven months to be exact had been hard. She said barely one word to the counselors. She didn't look at them. She just stayed comatose or something. She really hated talking, it was because she found her voice to be annoying.

She finally looked at the clock on her watch. She was running out of the time and all the counselors would be up and doing there rounds. So now here she was running back towards the home she called home now. She had been doing good up until she fell once. She got back up and started to run again. All she needed was a counselor to think she had left horizon now. They would have everyone out and looking for her in no time. She didn't want that to happen. No it was better just to show up when they were doing first light checks.

So she smelt the familiar smell of cigs. She didn't smoke but only when she could get a hold of them. She had hoped that whomever was smoking would give her one. She didn't mean to scare them, but she had stepped on a twig and it snapped beneath her. "Crap." She said quickly. When she heard Shelby's voice she came further into view.

"Sorry Shelby right, I just didn't know anyone else was out here." Her voice was soft spoken, had she actually known she was talking she wouldn't have opened her mouth. She hated the way she sounded. She hated the way she looked. She hated that she felt like she was following on the safe path her dear old mom had been on.

[shelby alexandria merrick]

*i don't mean to run !
^{BUT EVERYTIME YOU COME AROUND I FEEL MORE ALIVE THAN EVER}

Shelby took the time it took for Heaven to show herself and answer to answer to look her over. She recognized the girl. If she was right, they had both been at Horizon for about the same amount of time. What was the girl doing out here this early? Could she be out for a jog or something? Didn't they do enough of that shit during the day with the counselors. Shelby just personally couldn't stand it. Okay maybe that was a stretch. She didn't love the hiking or the running or the climbing, but it wasn't all bad. Definitely a stress reliever. That didn't mean she wanted to do more of it than she had too.

"Sorry Shelby right, I just didn't know anyone else was out here” Shelby couldn't help but laugh. "Sorry. The big bad wolf didn't mean to," she said with a light smirk on her lips. She bit her lip and look down at bit before adding, "I just tend to have that effect on people." She stepped completely out of the doorway to the equipment shed and shut the door behind her. She took a long drag of the cigarette. Of course Heaven knew her. Everyone knew about the bitchy whore of Horizon. At least that as the name some of the other kids liked to call her behind her back. It didn't bother her...not much anyway. She just tried to let it roll off her shoulders. Who care what they thought. From what she knew though Heaven pretty much kept to herself, unlike her sister.
"It's Heaven right?"

* maybe we're too young, and i don't even know what's real ! ,
^{BUT I KNOW I'VE NEVER WANTED ANYTHING SO BAD, I'VE NEVER WANTED ANYONE SO BAD}

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